The first couple of days at site seem like a blur. I was expecting a little latency period – the end of PST was hectic, and there are already problems to be solved here.
For the record, this period of time is meant for volunteers to carry out their community assessments. We should be talking with important residents of our villages and getting to know our organizations, as well as arranging our thoughts and planning for the rest of service. I think the learning curve will be a little bit different for me since my NGO is already requesting my help with each of its projects. It’s a little overwhelming; I’ve never had so much responsibility in a job.
My NGO is relatively underdeveloped, and the membership is voluntary. Seeking funding will probably comprise a large part of my service, as well as guiding the group’s activities to align with its mission statement. The positive is that the members are enthusiastic and welcoming, but they are also few. Problems are abundant here, and every person I talk to seems to have his or her own concerns.
On a more personal level, these past few days at site mark the first that I’ve ever lived alone. I’ve had roommates or housemates my whole life and I think this kind of loneliness is something I’ve always feared. I’m probably going to find an animal companion, but for the time being I’ve got to get used to the silence. This aspect of PC is about facing fears, I suppose.
Let’s hope I can do some damage control and come to a calm with settling in, because right now I’m feeling a little bit lost. Send some clarity my way if you can spare it!