I’ve come to terms with the fact that my life is going to proceed at a consistently inconsistent rate for the next year or so. With my COS date less than 1 year away, every day seems more important than the last – the pressure to complete projects is mounting. I would say that I have been steadily improving on the communication issues I’ve had in the past with my support group, but there’s still work to be done. The group still follows a rhythm, vacillating between active and dormant; unfortunately life gets in the way and I’m sometimes left with a lot of things that must be done and no one to participate. The distractions of daily life are the most frustrating part, beyond all my other roadblocks.
When I do manage to get a decently sized group of my members in the same room, we have lengthy discussions about current issues and growing our organization. My goal lately has been to pull the members into more responsibility. I may have been jumping the gun before when I wanted to simply hand out tasks like homework. One thing that has always surprised me about this group is our lack of attention on psychosocial support. I’ve tried, periodically, to open discussions about emotions relating to the virus’s social impact, but to no avail.
I’m searching for money with my primary assignment. Specifically, my search for funds focuses on Leretlhabetse Supoprt Group’s HIV Resource Centre. The plans are constantly shifting, but I’m connecting with some potential investors. We’ve arrived at the time when I must be constantly moving forward on this project if I hope to complete it in the next year before I close my service. It’s all very exciting and nerve-racking. It’s hard to believe, but this time next year I will be done.
This weekend I’ve decided to go to Ghanzi with a few friends for the Winter Metal Fest. I am beyond excited. This show has potential to be the strangest thing I have done in Botswana. I anticipate seeing metal cowboys decked out black leather and chains. This will also be the first live music show I’ve been to in quite a long time. I’ll be sure to take some pictures!